I generally like to keep my postings short, and to the point but this one might be very different. There is so much I need to catch up on and that I need to get off my chest. I might come back later and add a Table of contents to help the reader wade through the fluff. I bet if you read my last post you are wondering a couple of things. Well the answer is yes, or 42.
Actually last weekend was pretty awesome. I went to an Imbolc ritual held by Rose Hollow coven and it was breathtaking. It was just so overwhelming to meet so many nice people. They were all very down to earth and genuine. We were able to sit down with the members, and seekers before hand and talk about life. There was laughter and merriment, and a tiny bit of drinking. It felt comforting to just be myself around other people. It is a feeling that I am really not use to. We held ritual which was a first for me. Not that it was my first ritual, but certainly my first with a coven or group of people. I wont reveal what was said or even the outline but I will say a couple of things about it. I went into this very open. I had all day to prepare and it was constantly on my mind, which I think helped get some nerves out of the way. For the item I had to bring I decided to take along a Tarot Card. I choose the Ace of Wands. It seemed like the best choice since I really wanted to find a symbol that had something to do with my business and creativity.
I still was getting over “first meeting jitters”. Usually it takes me an awfully long time to open up to people. Sometimes years, which I believe leads to this misunderstanding that I am pretentious or snobbish. Honestly I am just shy and lack social grace. I find it hard within a large group to really let go. It is second nature to me that when I go out into public to really close off psychically, probably for self defense. I also tend to be a pretty even tempered person. Meaning I don’t get over excited or under excited, I always try and keep my emotions intact to avoid unraveling when things don’t go my way. This is a problem during ritual. I should be happy and let loose. I hope that this is something I will be able to overcome as I spend more time with Rose Hollow. It is ok to laugh and be merry and dance and act super goofy.
I feel good about the night as a whole though. I know because my body told me so. Something weird always happens to me when I am raising power. I has been an indicator to me of when I am raising really large amounts of power. I have to sneeze. When I am raising power I have to sneeze. During the ritual last Sat. I was trying very hard not to sneeze so I am happy that I was able to, even though I was a little uncomfortable, raise a decent amount of energy. What about the readers? Do any of you have weird things that happen when you raise energy for spell-work?
I have discovered that I have a sensitivity to Lamb. The HP had prepared an awesome lamb dish for afterritual. It was simply stunning but did not set well with me. It is a problem that I thought I might have so I ate very little, but honestly I have never been in the situation to test. I have had lamb in the past, and felt bad. Each time however, I was eating a food that I have never had before so I couldn’t be sure it was the lamb or the other ingredients and preparation of that lamb. My sincere compliments to the Chef.
So I got a request for a Tarot Reading from someone very close to me. I wont say much about the reading but you can check it out here. The reading did bring up a very interesting situation when reading for someone you know well. Usually I don’t do readings for people who are really close friends or people I know well. I find it hard if not in the right frame of mind to separate intuition from personal bias. There are things about the person that you know that may cloud your interpretation. Although part of me believes that knowing more may lend itself to a better interpretation of the cards. What do the readers think? Is knowing someone very well a reason to stay away from reading tarot for them? What are possible pitfalls to this process?
Check out the Book of Shadows Section which has been updated recently. I hope to add some more music soon, so stay tuned.
Finally, please send your kind thoughts for me and my wife. She found out today the she is being laid off. Her employer, my brother, is not sure that he can afford her anymore so he might have to let her go. This did not come as good news, although me being the eternal optimist is hoping for the best. Sweetheart if you are reading this, I love you and will always be here for you.