January 27, 2010
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So it starts. My mind is heightened and my will razor sharp. If my intent were a shotgun it would be fully loaded, chambers full of deadly might. I find myself perched staring down that gun with a target in sight. Every moment wanting to pull the trigger but waiting because I know that perfect shot is coming.
Chris Geddie, an awesome human being, said to me once.
Pain from regret last forever, but Pain from effort is only temporary.
I wish I could shake his hand today to tell him that his words resonate inside of me and drive my path as a Man, Wiccan, Husband, Business Owner, and Friend.
As is the Season, a series of events were set forth a couple of weeks ago when I met with the kind leaders of a local Coven. After what seems like weeks of waiting I am able to carry on with that initial planting to help this little seedling grow. This weekend is going to have more pagany events in it for me then I have had in many years combined. It is my sincere hope that I am able to be genuine with the people I meet this weekend and that my heart and mind open so wide as to redefine what it means to me to be a Pagan. Maybe that is setting the standard a little high, but as a solitary wiccan it is what I have craved most in my religious goals. That goal better defined is to meet other pagans to worship, learn from, and live. I am attending an Imbolc celebration on Sat. by Rose Hollow. Then on Sunday the High Priestess has invited my wife and I out to visit some of the local pagan shops and to a public ritual being held by another local coven. I feel on fire with excitement. I feel doubly blessed that I get to share this experience with my amazing wife.
There is always a catch to walking the road less traveled. Sure it may be exciting but there is a lot of unknown. The obstacles I face currently is a relatively easy one, but I need help. Everyone attending Imbolc was asked to bring something to represent a goal for the upcoming planting season. The example was given that if you were going to exercise more to bring running shoes. I am totally stuck as to what to bring. My first impression was something to do with my business. I started it only last year and would like to see it grow but I really don’t want to seem pretentious or give the first impression that money is that important to me. Right now there is a lot going on for me. I have my music with new instruments to learn. There is my new relationship with this coven that I hope will grow. Also, I have a new tarot deck that I would love to really get to know more personally. Additionally I have this blog which I really want to keep expanding with more music and adding into the Book of Shadows.
What about you? Share with me if you would what you would bring to such an event or even what you are focusing on this Imbolc.
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January 18, 2010
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Friday turned out to be just a crazy good day. My business made a good deal of money, I got a lot of work done, and after work went to a meeting with the HPS and HP of a coven named Rose Hollow. Amber and Eric were such a nice surprise. I really did go into this meeting with no expectations and was just glad to meet a fellow pagan.
My wife and I are currently looking for a Wicca 101 class. We are at the point in our lives where we are craving some religious structure and find it hard to find that on our own. We also are looking for pagan friends. Our experience with having non-pagan friends has not turned out good so far, but that is a whole other post.
So, in the rain and through busy Dallas rush hour traffic we drove to a Starbucks and made a connection. It is weird but afterwards I discovered that I might just have a prejudice against pagans. I know this because I was so relieved that that Amber and Eric were normal and truly down to earth people. I don’t know exactly what I was so surprised by but I remember thinking afterwards just how cool and honest they seemed. It was also refreshing to hear that a Pagan group is active in the community. Rose Hollow appearently does a good deal of charity for the area. The HPS even told this story how they donated to a local church that they knew needed help with their coat and blanket drive recently. In my head I am saying to myself, “Woah, that takes a real want to help someone,” but in actuality I just tried to play it cool. I didn’t want to seem overly eager to be apart of this coven. I have to keep reminding myself to hold back and be objective, but I know that these guys are a good fit because of something I learned from the real estate business. If during the visit to a property the potential buyers are already making plans and envisioning themselves in the property then they have already made a decision. In my head I could already see myself banging a drum at ritual and think about what I was going to wear.
The initial meeting turned out well and we were invited to their Imbolc ritual here in February. We are excited to get to know the rest of the coven. I know even though I could get along with the HP and HPS that it is important that I get to know the rest of the Coven before making any definite decisions. So far, so good.